One of the writing prompts this week was to go back one year ago and see what I was blogging about.
Okay, no problem. I'll go back a year ago.
I re-read the blog, well sorta kinda. I quickly skimmed over it. I didn't want to be back here and I sure as hell didn't want to be re-reading my own post. It made me uncomfortable.
I set the laptop down, went to the kitchen and made a cuppa 'chase the crappy weather away' hot liquid. ( sick of winter doesn't even begin to cover it, peeps) thinking about why this step back made me uncomfortable, why I didn't even want to read my words from a year ago. I had to figure this one out quick.
I'm really good that way, to take an emotion that smacks me upside the head without warning, inspect then dissect it. Hell, I know who I am so I shouldn't be,what's the word I'm looking for here... taken aback , yeah that's the word, by a relatively mild emotion.
huh... would you look at that. Strange.
What I came to realize, after blindly seeping the tea for 5 minutes too long, is this:
I also came to the conclusion that I don't vary much from my blog, which, after some more thought, is okay in my world. I don't blog for the sake of just putting a post out there. ( that doesn't happen in blog world, does it? ;-) ) My format is tailor made for me. I don't blindly go following bloggers in hopes they'll follow me back. ( that doesn't happen in the blog world, does it? ;-) ) I follow blogs of substance for the most part. ( Ok I'll cop to following a few because I don't have the heart to delete them, hurt feelings and all ) and I would like to think those that follow me do it because they enjoy my words. Not for numbers.
But I digress.
Today was an eye opener of sorts for me. Needless to say I won't be participating in this week's particular writing prompt...or come to think of it, just maybe I will. ( a whole lotta thinkin' going on here. ) Because without it, this old dog wouldn't of learned something new about herself.
Come to think of it , maybe ultimately that's what Mama Kat's Writing Workshop is all about.
Thanks, Mama Kat.