My Excellent Adventure... to come.

'Come on, we both know you can do it!'

'Excellent, look at you go!'

How many times have I said these words in the past five years?

I used to be a personal trainer.. well, of sorts. No, I don't have a degree,. No, I didn't go to school for it. But I probably should have. It seems to be one of my fortes.

I've been into sports all my life, from figure skating to spring board diving, from gymnastics to softball. I worked in a gym for the last five years, I have a gym in my basement.

I'm asked on occasion to be someone's personal trainer . It's not that I can't, it's that I won't. Not in the foreseeable future. I tend to become way too invested in your emotional wellbeing and it comes at a price.

My albatross,I know. 

I reached my breaking point last year when events in September/October came rushing up to bitch slap me. Instinct had me wanting to fight back but I knew the time had come to pick my battles. I had reached my limit of giving continuously without 'refueling'. Not only job wise but with other aspects of my life.

I walked away from a lot of things, I was burnt-out.

So please know turning down your offer to hire me as your personal trainer was very hard.  The instinct to help is knee jerk but I won't be able to give you 100%. You deserve no less. I will give you the tools to succeed and I will celebrate your successes. You'll be able to find me when you look for direction or support. But I need you to believe you have the willpower and determination to do it. I know you do, I see it in you.

I might be letting opportunities (such as this one) go but when the door meant for me opens, I'll know it. I won't just won't cross through, I'll charge it and grab my next adventure by the horns.

Till then, I'm still me. Just chiliaxin', trying to figure out the rhythm of my life and what I want to be when I grow up. And when I figure it out it'll be another excellent adventure.

Question is... are you down for the ride?! 

:-)